Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Love is......

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

God gave me this scripture this morning. He knows my struggles. I thought he was reminding me of the love he blessed Kirk and I with....... after reading each word I began to second guess myself. Is he scolding me? See, I don't always have the patience of JOB. LOL! I get frustrated and overwhelmed! I have my "girl, you need to hide your crazy moments". I thought, "OK God I get it I need to do better", but again He knows my struggles. He is reminding me of His love for me this morning. 

We are coming up on the 8th month of living with Alzheimer's. I guess we can call it what it is. I had not read anything on Alzheimer's until yesterday. I think I was not ready to give this disease that disrupted our lives this name. I read this disease has seven stages to monitor the progression by. Kirk is somewhere between stages 5 and 6.  I have scheduled for an Alzheimer counselor/specialist to come visit with me and the kids on Thursday. Hoping to learn some tips, what to expect, etc. 

Yesterday I took Kirk shopping. He and Jessica have a memory that I wanted to preserve for Parker. "The Glove"  When Jessica was little they hung out at the Old ballpark in Arlington. They would watch the Ranger's practice. This was back in the late 80's. Being the cutie pie she was:) she caught the eye of the entire team with her tiny baseball glove in hand. One of the players scooped her up in his arms and signed her glove leading the way for the rest of the team. I tell this story like I was there. I have heard Kirk tell it a thousand times and every time he beams with excitement. Facebook pics tonight of how we preserved this memory for Parker.  This kid has already stolen his Pops' heart! 

I am so blessed to be given the opportunity to stay home with Kirk during this time. I treasure each day. We curl up on the couch and take naps, we watch movies, we take walks, etc. There are not a lot of deep conversations going on those are few and far between, but a touch, a smile, a kiss and I love you are the most treasured these days. He is so precious, I can't imagine my life without him. 

Love always protects, it always trusts, it always gives hope, it always perseveres........ My prayer is that I am staying true to this scripture for Kirk. I will protect him, I will trust God, I will always have hope, I will persevere now and the hard days to come.


  1. Stacy, my mom was an early onset Alzheimer's patient and my heart goes out to you and you will all be in my prayers~

  2. Hi Stacy!! You do not know me, a friend of mine from Bullard posted a link to your blog on her Facebook page. My grandson plays all of his youth sports in Bullard and we love that little town. My dad had something very similar to Alzheimers, but it was not. I'm not sure they ever gave my stepmother a very real diagnosis. I want you to know you are in my thoughts and prayers, it is a hard road to be on with someone you love. I watched my dad slowly lose his memory and his ability to work as well. I saw him get angry with me, no longer understanding the reasoning behind why we had to do things, or just not understanding the "logic" of how things have always been and it was so hard. Please don't forget to take some time for yourself as a caregiver. Sending gentle hugs and prayers to both of you.