Sunday, February 16, 2014

I Will Forever.......

It's been so long since I sat down and blogged. Part of that disconnecting I'm so good at:)............

These days before me are game changers. We should meet our hospice nurse next week and learn what to expect in the months to come.  As we enter this phase of the disease I find myself getting so mad at God..........that in itself truly breaks my heart. I know I shouldn't be angry at Him, but I know He is the only one that can make this disease go away. I miss Kirk with every ounce of my being. I'm sorry,but in this blog you may have a hard time finding my words of strength.  My heart is breaking as the love of my life slowly says goodbye.

Today at church we read the Love chapter, One of mine and Kirk's favorites.......

One of the longest definitions of love can be found in I Corinthians 13: 1-13. In today's world love has such a twisted meaning. A love that brings you instant gratification. The love in the bible offers another option. It took me many years to understand how beautiful that love is. It offers patience, it offers kindness, it offers forgiveness, it offers hope. Anything else is counterfeit.

I am so thankful that God let me experience that love with Kirk. I will forever listen to the love song that God sings in my heart. I love you Sweetheart.............

2 comments:

  1. I just started following your story as of today. You are an amazing woman with a strong love and caring soul. My heart aches for you but I smile at the stories you've told. The bond with your family is beautiful. Know that you and your husband are in my thoughts.

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  2. I worked with Kirk many years ago at Mother Frances Hospital and again through WRL General Contractors when he had his cleaning business. I learned of his journey through this horrible disease by accident.....I saw your blog posted on a mutual friend's FB page (Ruthanne Rodeick) and could not believe it when I saw it was about Kirk. Since then, I have continued to follow your blog and I pray for all of you when the Holy Spirit brings you to mind, which is quite often. My heart breaks for you and your family. I cannot even begin to imagine the trials that daily life brings you. But, let me just say that I am in awe of what God is doing through your trials. God truly does redeem all that He allows and that, my dear one, is evident as you post what He lays on your heart. I am so sorry for what you are enduring, but know that it causes many (me included) to come humbly before the Lord with our care and concerns for one another. In today's world, that is a BIG, BIG thing. Thank you for sharing your journey through this difficult time and for allowing so many of us to join you and Kirk to bow before God with our requests and pleas on your behalf. May HE be glorified in every....single....minute of it. Know that there are so many joining you on HIS behalf. May you be refreshed and rejuvenated and overwhelmed by HIS presence.

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